new is always better

resolutions are lame

however

life changing decisions are hardcore

the difference between the two?

the follow through

stick it out

commit

trust me, the bragging rights are worth it

with all that clarified

here are some of my recent life changing decisions

[and the reason for why i chose each one]

firstly. to be fit&healthy

please don't scoff

i'm not talking about skinny bikini body dream lust

i'm thinking of

being able to keep up a crazy busy schedule without fainting from fatigue

and avoiding potential medical issues down the road

i'm referring to

being careful what i eat because every fatty fried bite matters

and being mindful of my priorities concerning my free time

i'm talking about my health

why?

because today at work, i watched a forty-year old woman

spend an entire two minutes panting after walking five steps

from the bathroom to her shopping cart

let me reemphasize this point

forty. five steps. panting. for two whole minutes.

is this an example of me?

nope

am i close?

not in the slightest?

can that life sneak up on even the best of us?

absolutely

i choose health

...also on that note

Arbonne is addicting for all the best reasons
and every muscle in my body aches from a killer workout
at Balance Fitness Studio

and i'm sure tomorrow morning will be  much much worse

stay tuned
for my other recent commitments
[and my fitness adventures]
blogging has not been a high priority as late
which i'm sure ya'll knew
[especially if you glance down at my previous post' date]
but one of my decisions has been to be better
keep me accountable, please

♥

much love
connally

PS i will love you forever if you know
who the awesome person  the title quote comes from

and i try not to dream

i haven't had the days that i thought i would

and i'm not moving toward the future

i thought i wanted

life is unexpected

if it wasn't

making the journey would be only tedious walking in a straight line

and there is no adventure in that kind of traveling

twists and turns and pits full of furiously starving tigers

that is life

i've got a few things on my mind

but i am tired

tired from a somewhat frustrating job

that barely pays the bills

which i never seem to be able to get the better of

no matter how many pennies i throw in a jar

sigh

sometimes giving up and just lying down

and curling up in a thick quilt

and shutting my eyes and my ears and my consciousness

to the reality that living is hard

is the only way i get by

i am not depressed

but i am weary

there are three very important things

i wanted to share with you lovelies

one.

my swankiest discovery of the last month?

pininterest

it is freaking fantastic

and for all you beauty&photography whores out there

as well as the crafty-craft artists

it's just the right addiction 

follow me

two.

i keep promising i won't leave you guys

that my desertion was temporary

and i'm horribly sorry

and that it will never ever ever happen again

but here's my secret

i lied

and this time

i'm not going to promise to stay or leave

or blog daily or weekly or bi-weekly

or anything

i am here now

and next time i blog, well then i'm back

simple

three.

i started a new blog

it will be about all the crazy lovely heartache thrilling changes

in this girl's life

ya'll won't get the address to it

quite yet

be patient

but know that it is coming very soon

and it's awesome spice

♥

happy monday, my lovelies

connally

chasing pirates[norah jones]
PS i love her boots. and those bottles. and her adorable hair.

and that apartment.

fine, i love everything about this music video

homo sum, humani nihil a me alienum puto

the battles we fight

are never just our battles

they are more than that, to us, to others

a battle to find the right words to say

when something horrid has happened and all the air leaves a room

and your best friend is staring at you

lost and scared and you have nothing

not even a simple word to offer her

when you scream rage at your mother

because it isn't what she said it's what she meant

and all the little insults over years and years

have damaged you

and you realize that trust and love don't always coexist

when you watch the news and see people dying

children fighting

governments silent

your heart breaking and numb

helpless

but if those battles were not just their battles but yours

if humanity acted out of character and fought for survival of all

what kind of world would that be

if any world at all?

i speak not to you but to myself

how many times do i forget others and turn inward

one's own head is always filled with the loudest problems

it is the best place to hide

and the quickest place to lose sight of what is true

 

there is always an enemy

always an ally

just make sure you can tell which is which

before you choose who to die beside

 

 *   *   *

the Hunger Games

by Suzanne Collins

[if you dare watch the film before reading the Trilogy, kindly unfollow me]

words are only letters and sounds and oxygen

there is something no longer heavy weighing on my soul

the darkness that had stopped my words is gone

and they are flowing in a torrential flood

fast and heavy and unstoppable

the sunlight is back and the way is clear

  i can feel life in me again

the words have reawakened me

brought strength back to my weary bones

and glorious hope into the way i look at this world

the world that surrounds me

and the one inside my head

there are new things that i did not see before

they must have shown up when i was not looking

now off to discover what bright new curiosities

i do not think you realize how sacred writing is to you

reading as well

but writing makes you happy

and you haven't been happy in a long time

[paraphrased from conversations with honey]

thank you

for seeing past the murkiness of exhaustion and bad moods

for knowing who i am and who i was and who i still could be

for holding on when it was difficult

and for being exactly who you are

oh and also

happy birthday to me

these cloud-shaped marshmallows

i can feel my heart exploding

emotions roiling and rolling

a storm over the ocean in such heights of ectasy

acoustic guitar

and a melodious voice speaking truth

music is not complicated

and in its simplicity it invokes the complexity of emotion

happiness or such an infinite sadness

but authentic deeply felt emotion nevertheless

be at peace

[and allow an industry promoting untalented 'artists' to crumble and die]

i could apologize for the lengthy absence

but as much as i've missed this and you

the break was muchly needed

so i will only apologize with half the sincerity

[if that is even possible]

there is much to be caught up upon

new job. more boy. moving soon. life

but that is coming soon

for tonight

i am listening to the soothing coffee house musicians

and spilling my guts into a freshly turned journal

stay tuned

and i promise to return to you

kudos to we heart it